Because Naoko Never Loved Me [LP] (2017)

by Paper Bags

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After six years, five singles (with b-sides), and eleven EPs, here is the very first full-length Paper Bags album. It took a year and a half to write and about a month to record. Now I give it to you.

Writing this album was my only way to cope with certain significant losses and struggles I've endured over the past two years and it helped me heal. It helped me grow. It helped me move on at a time when I didn't think I ever would. But now, after everything, I can say that I am looking forward to the future. I am ready to live and I am ready to love.

Thank you to all that have helped me and supported me along the way - you know who you are.

- GH, 2017

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“She knew that my memories of her would fade. Which is precisely why she begged me never to forget her, to remember that she had existed. The thought fills me with an almost unbearable sorrow. Because Naoko never loved me.”

- Haruki Murakami in "Norwegian Wood"

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released March 5, 2017

All songs written & performed by Geoff Hornby

Cello on "Stay" arranged & performed by Gordon Julian

Cover photograph by Katie Fay

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Track Name: Up From The Ashes
Come on, move on
That's what they tell me
I can't - I'm gone
The world is breaking down all around me
And I won't sleep tonight

If I had one wish to be granted,
I'd wish I was somehow able to rise up from the ashes
And I won't sleep tonight
Track Name: Take A Chance With Me
There were some things I couldn't say back then
But by now I think you know
There were some things I didn't know back then
And so much that I still don't

Please take a chance with me
I promise I'll be true

I'm thinking we can just put the past where it belongs
And we can finally move on
And we'd be lying to ourselves if we did not believe
That we are both strong

Please take a chance with me
I promise I'll be true

I know things can get better
Track Name: Untitled No. 1
There's just something in the way that everything fell apart
That I would call a work of art
No, I don't blame you for leaving
But I am starting to think that we were cursed right from the start
There was not a damn thing we could do

It was certainly a journey
Oh, I did learn a lot and I would bet that you did too
Through the joy and all the pain and everything nbetween
But time is up for me and you
Take it in for all that it is worth

When my mind takes me to places that I don't want it to go
I find that I still call your name
Even now after you're gone you know I'm begging you to come to me
And take away the pain
Don't know if I'll make it on my own
Track Name: The Beginning & The End
I've been drinking every night and I miss you all the time
How I wish that I could hold you again
When I don't know where to turn
But I am starting to learn
That I don't think I will hold you again

Just show your pretty face somewhere around this empty place
I wanna know if you are doing alright

I've been moving place to place
Memories they start to fade
And I don't think I could stand to lose touch
The bottle is my friend, the beginning and the end
It doesn't matter that I still love you so much

Just show your pretty face somewhere around this empty place
I wanna know if you are doing alright

Try to kill the thoughts in my head
Kill 'em good and kill 'em dead
But the thoughts of you they just won't go away
So I have another drink and I sit alone and think
Because the thoughts of you have come and come to stay

Just show your pretty face somewhere around this empty place
I wanna know if you are doing alright
Just show your pretty face somewhere around this empty place
If I had it my way I'd take you home tonight

I don't know when to quit
But I know you're through with it
And I know that things won't ever be the same
The bottle has run dry and I feel like I wanna die
Just know I never wanted it to be this way
Track Name: Too Late
Once again I've found myself halfway through a bottle
And I reflect on memories of you and your infinite wonder

While everything and everyone escapes me
And it way too late, too god damn late to change
All the ones I love - they slowly slip away
And it's way too late so I'll just stay the same

Tell me something that I've never heard before
Come and shake things up 'cause I'm finally getting bored

While everything and everyone escapes me
And it way too late, too god damn late to change
All the ones I love - they slowly slip away
And it's way too late so I'll just stay the same

I've been up all night alone with cigarettes and drink
And I can't tell right now if I will swim or sink
Track Name: Mind In Action
Ask me anything you want - I'll kill you with my honesty
And if I were you I would be afraid
Of what I might do, what I might say
I would recommend that you don't take this risk
And simply run away
I don't wanna hurt you

Because I know what happens when my mind's in action
It destroys everything in its path against my will

I can be so complicated yet so simple all at once
And I don't understand a single thing
That's happening inside of me -
I feel like I am stuck between the here and now
And fading memories
I know that I have lost control

And that is just what happens when my mind's in action
It destroys everything in its path against my will

Ask me anything you want - I cannot tell a lie to you
It's so much easier to tell the truth
So if you wanna take the chance,
I'll answer anything you ask
But just remember that I did warn you that I am dangerous to know

Because I know what happens when my mind's in action
It destroys everything in its path against my will
Track Name: Here
Some things around here don't seem right anymore
And it's filled with faces I don't know
It's evident in the way light's coming in
And it turns all those faces grey

This place ain't shit but empty bottles and drunks
And I don't know where they came from
When it's empty I don't sleep worth a damn
But I hope that they were having fun

Fiona don't sleep to dream
So where does that leave me?
The mind inside my heart says, "Die,"
But something's keeping me here

I don't like the times we live in or the times I fucked up
I wish I was nicer then
And if someone would've shown me how to love in return
Then I might be someone at all

There's a barricade that just won't give
My mind and collide
I don't think I'll ever know what's really keeping me here
Track Name: Blues For Ana
I started laying on your side of the bed
Because you're gone and that's all I have left
Ain't no comfort in good memories - I've hit a dead end
Maybe someday I might get some sleep
Maybe someday I'll find what I need
But right now I'll pretend that I can feel you breathe

We sat on a bench by the water
And we held the hands of each other
It seems like a good memory but sadly it is all over
Maybe someday I'll put it to rest
Wish that I could have given my best
But right now I am drained out of all I had left

I hope that we'll meet again someday
And that I might have something to say
That won't hurt you or confuse you or even rub you the wrong way
But I fear that that day might not come
I feel that you're just the victim
Of all the pain that I wanted to turn into love
Track Name: Can You Believe It?
I can't get what I want and I'm up against the all
Can you believe it?
I just wanted you to know
That I never meant to be so damn deceiving
But if you give me the chance
Then maybe I can make it up to you someday

I never really knew exactly what I had to do to please you
I could only please myself
And take a good look at me now -
I'm torn in pieces
But if you give me the chance
Then maybe I can make it up to you someday

When I put that record on I'm reminded of when I felt your heart beating
I don't put it on no more because my heart is all a'torn -
Can you believe it?
But if you give me the chance
Then maybe I can make it up to you someday
Track Name: Stay
If you can speak to me, why shouldn't I believe it?
I have no reason to think that this is all a dream

So if you want to be here - stay
And if I have to then I will disappear
You won't believe it
And if this is all a dream,
Why can't I be living?

So if I have to be here I'll pretend to read your mind
You can keep me safe and hold me
But I will hold you back

If I have to be here I'll try not to lose my mind
You can keep me safe and hold me
But I will hold you back
Track Name: A Long & Lonely Year
It's been a long time, darlin', since we've been alright
You've changed your hair since back then
And we shared my bed last night

So where do we go from here?
It's been a long and lonely year
We've changed so much
But it's enough to have you in my life at all
Track Name: Live, Love, Learn, Grow
In this moment now I realize there's a part of me that I must leave behind
I knew it when I looked into your eyes tonight
I wasn't ready, not quite yet,
But now the time is right

You taught me everything that I needed to learn
You did it all without even saying a word
With just a simple smile you have lifted this curse
My eyes have just been opened to a whole new world

I've come to terms with what I've done
This is me starting to move on
It's true you can't erase the past
But you can live, love, learn, grow,
I've finally found some peace at last

It's true that what is done is done
And you can't escape committing wrong
But you must live, love, learn, and grow
And you can find the joy that I now know